Monday, July 19, 2010

Moseying Through the Days

I've been so frustrated, depressed, and so very sad over the past few weeks that I just haven't been able to get my mind going in the direction it needed to in order to do a post worth reading or writing.

Beginning with my surgery. We were billed $33,143 for it initially. After meeting with the "man" in charge of taking every penny of your liquid assets, the bill was miraculously reduced to $11,300 since that was exactly what we had scrimped to save in an IRA. I could have paid the bill out in monthly installments but it would have been with no reduction and a longer than life monthly expense.

Another $3660 is owed for the surgeon, the this,,,the that,,,but we are paying that as much as we can monthly. When that's paid we can start saving again, maybe.

A financial aid rep came by my room when the word was passed down that we had no insurance,,,did you know that we'd have qualified for financial aid if we'd had a credit score below 600? WTH?

And sadly, my best yahoo trivia, blogger, facebook, boisterous, wise, sweet, loving Kat left us on June 7th. Every time my phone rings I expect to hear her gruff voice on the line, She had the most fabulous talent for knowing when a friend needed a laugh and she sure provided me with a load of those. I am so lucky to have known her and I miss her more than I know how to say. I can't imagine the hurt her loved ones are feeling without her.

So now Summer is here and zooming by too quickly. School will be starting in just a few weeks, Zach's already having to go to football practice 4 mornings a week. The days are getting shorter and I hate that. Before we know it, it'll be Winter again and I'll be whining for Spring.

A vicious cycle, isn't it?


Jeanette said...

Brenda-So sorry that you are in a valley in life right now. Things will get better just hang in there. I know what you mean about summer going too fast ..any day now the cicadas will start singing in the trees and that signals the beginning of the end of summer for me!

Out on the prairie said...

I paid for three years to clear a bill and found to approach each individually with your financial.Had a lot lowered and finally telling them the patient had passed, some dropped, with my credit score.Perhaps how you share a story is a gift your friend left you.

Sally said...

I know how badly you must miss your friend, Ms Brenda. :(

Britt has no insurance, and we're still waiting to see what's to be done. Maybe since she hasn't yet established credit, she'll get some kind of break. I sure hope so, none of us have the kind of money for paying numerous hosp and surgeries.

Thanks for posting; take care and chin up! ((((hugs))))

Donna said...

I am so sorry that you have had to deal with this. I do hope that you can find some insurance once you see your way clear of all of the mess. I am also sorry for the loss of your friend. I wish I could comfort you in person.

SOUL said...

damn. sorry brenda. i missed this post when you posted it -- just now catchin up . i really am sorry for your loss. seems there's a lot of loss in this post. it's understandable that you're sad about things. i get it. even grieving a season. the cold and dark weather seems to bring with it the same type of feelings and memories or something - doesn't it?

i hope you're gettin to feeling better .

bug hugs to you-- enjoy some sun and time outside today - it'll help -

Jeanne said...

{{HUGS}} Brenda. I haven't had the serious stuff you have but it has been a strange time. Keep going girl and know that even though Kat will never be replaced you have many of us here that love you.

Karen M said...

OH, Brenda, I'm so sorry I haven't been by your blog in a while. I've not been a very good blogger lately. Life is difficult for lots of folks. You've certainly had more than you share of loss and grief. You are made of tough cloth though and you will get through it all. Wish I could give you a great big hug right now.